To die like christ is gain?

Columbine happens everyday. It just doesn't take place in a library. The girl who died for Christ is a martyr for her faith. I just wonder sometimes, is that what Christ really wanted? Her death inspire millions I have no doubt, but what I do ponder is could she have been more?

I had a daydream recently where all the red-headed students were lined up in front of the auditorium and a gunman went down the line asking the proverbial question: Would you die for Christ? A few proudly with a tear in their eye said, yes. They died. Quite a few more said no. They left the stage quietly. My turn came and I said no. Not out of fear of death but the idea of dying for someone who died for me is stupid. I said I wouldn't die for Christ, hell, he didn't even die for himself. He died for others. I took my choice and said I would take the place of the next person down the row. I would die for them. Not Christ?

Is this blasphemy?

I would suffer for the cause but death for one who has given life to all, who already died, is absurd...to me. I admire those who defiantly chose to give their gift back to the one who gave it. Perhaps that is their strength and my weakness.
Their worth of life came through death. Sadly today they are crucified with Christ again. This time the cross is consumerism.

Jesus is a bobble-head, Paul is candle, Francis is a bird bath, and rachel is a bracelet.

True these things can inspire and foster a spirituality but I think is mostly to fufill personal salvation.